Random Thoughts

You Deserve a Love that has Purpose. You are not made for temporary love, one that sees you as someone who is only good for now; You are not made for a love that is convenient, because you are someone he needs. You are not made for a love that does not commit, because that is not love at all. You deserve a love that has purpose, one that sees a lifetime with you; You deserve a love that is lasting, one that still loves amidst the challenges you go through. You deserve a love that commits,   one that sees a life with you no matter how hard it gets.

You deserve a love that is certain; That is sure about you and does not keep you guessing. You deserve a love that is sure; a love that is sure about you. A love that chooses you over and over again no matter the circumstances. You deserve a love that stays even when everything else has chosen to leave. You deserve a love you are certain of; A love you are sure of; A love you will choose no matter what; and And a love you will stay with, even if the others have left. 

How many times have you blamed yourself for things gone wrong? Plans going south? And goals remaining unmet? Often, you see yourself at a standstill, feeling like you are not getting anywhere in life. Yes, it is often disappointing to see how much you have given and yet you are still far off from your dreams. In fact, you will often feel that what you want are moving away from you, and perhaps, they are not meant for you. But these thoughts are just that, thoughts, they are not your reality, so get easy on yourself. What you feel is valid, but it is temporary: All of us feel that way sometimes, and it is important to recognize those feelings. However, we cannot dwell on them for long because if we do, we will fail to recognize all the good things that happened to us. We would miss the chance of enjoying our little victories. Although it does not feel good to see our plans shatter, remember that those are just hiccups. You can only stare at the broken glass for so long, b...

Earning the third stripe is indeed a fulfillment. It is a manifestation that the years of sleepless nights, reading texts and references over and over again just to make sense of them, and depriving yourself of meeting friends and family, did not go in vain.  But really, why go through all that? And what happens next? I earned mine a little over a couple of years ago. Of course, I was proud, happy and fulfilled, but the biggest feeling was a relief. Finally, I can move on to other dreams, and start focusing my energy on other duties. But after all the celebrations and congratulations, everything went back to normal. I feel the same person, I did not feel like I was an expert on anything, in fact, it made me realize that there are so much more that I do not know. Often times, I would find myself not knowing how to respond. I realized further, that earning the degree does not make you an expert, at least not yet. It only strengthens your desire to know more, because whether ...

It is not difficult to move one from someone who was never yours. What is difficult is to say goodbye to a dream, a dream of spending the rest of your life with this person. It is difficult to let go of a dream, a dream you thought that came true. You thought, that maybe this time, he will look at you with the same love you have for him, that maybe this time, you found the one. The sad thing about letting him go is that you know, he was never yours to begin with. You do not have the right to ask for an explanation or a proper goodbye because he does not owe you that. That’s the sad thing about not making it clear from the start and being content to just be there by his side and not asking who you are to him. You cannot ask him to stay or demand for a chance, because you had all the chances to ask what you are to him but you did not. All you did was wait for his feelings to change and hope that he’d finally realize that you are supposed to be together. And so here you...

They say life is an unending cycle. Something starts, another ends. And it moves on. This is true with meeting people. In one lifetime, we make connections with tons of individuals. For a moment, it seems like we are meant to find them and share a special bond. After a while, we realize that we may cross path with few special people but they are not meant to stay in our lives. Have you had a close friend when you were in grade school and promised that you will be friends forever? Where is that friend now? If you still share that closeness, you are blessed. But for most, close friends have grown apart. Circumstances, distance and choices have weakened the connection. Even families have broken apart; wives and husbands who gave their promises to cherish one another are no more. There are siblings filing cases left and right because of properties and rights. Relatives have become indifferent because of favors declined and opposing opinions. The person you love and dee...

I love fairy tales. I’m in awe with how perfect a woman can be while living an imperfect life brought by an evil’s envy. Yes, the evil hates beautiful things, evil destroys them. But don’t fret; someone will always come to save the day, the prince. He will come for you, with his mighty sword, deep voice and a perfectly brushed up hair. He will come for you, riding his horse, offering you his hand. He always comes for you… you, a lovely damsel. Soon, you, a young beautiful lady will be freed from your miserable life, and of course, you and your handsome prince will live happily ever after. Yes, I love fairy tales. I grew up watching them. I love fairy tales, I just don’t believe in them. Not anymore. As much as I love them, I think they are misleading. Not all women need saving, not everyone who needs them get saved. Life is not a fairy tale. I’m not saying that there is no love in life. Of course there is. It’s just that, life is not always about a woman’s struggles and ...